Recently there have been a lot of things going on in life; in fact as many of you know I recently finished my bachelor’s degree in Biblical studies, we’ve gotten our house on the market, doing the normal church/youth/worship thing, and so on. You know about it because I seem to talk about it all the time and I probably do talk about it too much.
Being almost completely on the other side of some of that, I have noticed a difference in my personality even. I am less stressed, more relaxed about things, and all in all more comfortable in my skin because I am not running at a thousand mph. All of this has caused me to notice something…
I have noticed just how far away I am from where I want to be.
Not geographically…at least not yet.
But I am not the person I want to be because I have let other things creep into my life, non important things as well as important things. More importantly, I believe that until very recently I was not even attempting to be the person God wants me to be.
Why?
Cus I have stuff to do!
I mean really, we all have struggled at some point in time with this; in fact more of us may struggle with not being bothered by this. I mean…
Does it bug you that you don’t want more of God?
Does it bother you that you may be ok with your relationship with God being where it is?
Do you want more?
I was completely ok with it. It didn’t bother me.
I am pretty hot or cold, depending on the situation; I either want something done near perfectly…or I use the “it’s good enough” approach. There is seldom an in between.
How we approach God shouldn’t be that way. I have recently read through Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy…all fun books to read…for some people I suppose, which I am not one of. However, I have gleaned one thing from those books…God wants us to be holy.
We can’t be Holy without His Spirit guiding us.
He won’t guide us unless we listen.
We won’t listen…until we are bothered enough by our depravity to listen.
Our depravity is us relying on anything but God, and anything but God will leave us in want.
Are you satisfied in state of want? Many people are trying to talk themselves into thinking they are ok in a state of want…but the two sides are contrary to one another. You can’t want and be satisfied...unless you want more of something that truly fills you as God can…and then you want more of Him.
It may seem like I am talking in circles…I’m not trying to…but it is kind of a hard thing to think through how the Spirit of God works in and through someone…and the initial twinge I feel from the Spirit is when I feel Him working in me letting me know when something should bother me…and if it doesn’t…should it?
What bothers you?
Or are you like I have been recently…numb?
What bothers you?
